{"id":681,"date":"2012-01-05T06:29:01","date_gmt":"2012-01-05T05:29:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/?p=681"},"modified":"2012-03-12T14:13:30","modified_gmt":"2012-03-12T13:13:30","slug":"huzun-yanim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/?p=681","title":{"rendered":"H\u00fcz\u00fcn Yan\u0131m"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn yan\u0131ms\u0131n. G\u00fcne\u015fin vurmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6lgede kalan yan\u0131m. <img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft  wp-image-682\" title=\"ay\u015fe-G\u00fcler-2\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/03\/ay\u015fe-G\u00fcler-2.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"140\" height=\"158\" srcset=\"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/03\/ay\u015fe-G\u00fcler-2.jpg 334w, http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/03\/ay\u015fe-G\u00fcler-2-265x300.jpg 265w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 140px) 100vw, 140px\" \/>Kimselerin bilmedi\u011fi kendime saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m. En \u00e7ok ayazda kalm\u0131\u015f olup da r\u00fczgara savuramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, al\u0131p al\u0131p defalarca sineme sard\u0131\u011f\u0131m yan\u0131ms\u0131n. En \u00e7ok kanayan yaram\u0131 sarmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Sard\u0131k\u00e7a kanayan kanad\u0131k\u00e7a sard\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00a0Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn yan\u0131ms\u0131n. Her do\u011fan g\u00fcnle bir kez daha \u00fcmidimi y\u0131kan taraf\u0131ms\u0131n. \u201cOlmad\u0131 olmayacak\u201d dedirten &#8230;hain d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131ms\u0131n. \u201cAh \u00e7\u0131ksa gelse \u015fimdi\u2026\u201d diyecek kadar kendimi kapt\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m safl\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. \u201c\u00c7\u0131ksa ve gelse, alsa ve g\u00f6t\u00fcrse\u2026\u201d diye \u00e7\u0131rpan kanad\u0131ms\u0131n. Ve her defas\u0131nda kendime k\u0131rk kez s\u00f6yleyip k\u0131rk kez yan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00a0Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn yan\u0131ms\u0131n. S\u00f6k\u00fcp atamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m umut \u00e7i\u00e7eklerini g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm topra\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Bahar gelir ye\u015ferir diye ya\u011fmur, \u00e7amur, kar k\u0131\u015f demeden sulad\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Olur da bir g\u00fcn a\u00e7ars\u0131n diye bekledi\u011fim sevdams\u0131n. Sevda \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri a\u00e7ar m\u0131 bilinmez ama umuduna umudumu ba\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn yan\u0131ms\u0131n. Dar vakitte bulup tez zamandaki kayb\u0131ms\u0131n. \u201cNe olur kal benimle\u201d dedirtecek kadar yalvard\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. \u201cSensiz hayat\u0131 istemiyorum\u201d diyecek kadar u\u00e7urumdan kendimi att\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Geceyle g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc, yanl\u0131\u015fla do\u011frumu kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131ran taraf\u0131ms\u0131n. Sahi sen benim soldan soldan vuran yan\u0131ms\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00a0Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn yan\u0131ms\u0131n. Sensizken anlam\u0131n\u0131 yitirdi\u011fim hayat\u0131ms\u0131n. B\u00fct\u00fcn kelimelerime y\u00fckledi\u011fim anlams\u0131n. \u201cSen\u201d diye ba\u015flay\u0131p da bitiremedi\u011fim \u00fc\u00e7 noktams\u0131n. \u201cSen, sen ille de sen\u201d diye durup durup nefes ald\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. \u201cSen varsan ben var\u0131m\u201d dedirtecek kadar kendimi hi\u00e7e sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Kaderi kaderime yaz\u0131ls\u0131n diye her g\u00fcn Yarat\u0131c\u0131ya yalvard\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Akl\u0131mda, y\u00fcre\u011fimde ve duamda olans\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn yan\u0131ms\u0131n. Bak\u0131\u015f\u0131na hasret kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m, sesine \u00f6zlemle ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. \u00d6zlemim, hasretim, bakmaya doyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Baht\u0131ma do\u011fan\u0131ms\u0131n. Olmazsa olmazs\u0131ms\u0131n. Nefretim, \u00f6fkem, kinim, sevincim, umudum, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm, r\u00fcyam, hayalim ama en \u00e7ok a\u011flatan, en \u00e7ok da kanatans\u0131n\u2026 Sen tarifi imkans\u0131z a\u015fk\u0131ms\u0131n. Cans\u0131n\u2026 Candas\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Yusuf Duman<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Ekleyen<\/li>\n<li>Ayse g\u00fcler<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn yan\u0131ms\u0131n. G\u00fcne\u015fin vurmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6lgede kalan yan\u0131m. Kimselerin bilmedi\u011fi kendime saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m. En \u00e7ok ayazda kalm\u0131\u015f olup da r\u00fczgara savuramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, al\u0131p al\u0131p defalarca sineme sard\u0131\u011f\u0131m yan\u0131ms\u0131n. En \u00e7ok kanayan yaram\u0131 sarmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n. Sard\u0131k\u00e7a kanayan kanad\u0131k\u00e7a sard\u0131\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n\u2026 \u00a0Sen benim h\u00fcz\u00fcn &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/?p=681\">Okumaya devam et <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/681"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=681"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/681\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":684,"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/681\/revisions\/684"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=681"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=681"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=681"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}