{"id":512,"date":"2011-02-24T10:53:30","date_gmt":"2011-02-24T09:53:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/?p=512"},"modified":"2018-05-16T16:46:54","modified_gmt":"2018-05-16T15:46:54","slug":"512","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/?p=512","title":{"rendered":"Ba\u015flamak yeniden"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u00c7ok uzun zaman ge\u00e7ti yazmayal\u0131<\/strong>.<a href=\"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/12\/Paasfofto.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft  wp-image-377\" title=\"Paasfofto\" alt=\"\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--bykadada-65ab.biz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/12\/Paasfofto.jpg\" width=\"165\" height=\"157\" \/><\/a> Araya tatil girdi demek isterdim ama, \u015f\u00f6yle geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda maalesef ki sayfalar ile arama giren i\u015fim\u00b4mi\u015f. Neredeyse t\u00fcm \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak ge\u00e7irdim hayat\u0131.\u015eans\u0131m\u0131 denemek istiyorum bu defa; yeniden ba\u015flamak kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerden ve yazmak sayfalar dolusu.<br \/>\nZaman zaman insan\u0131n hayattan b\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131, bir yerlerde hata yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 farketti\u011fi anlarda, olmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011fi \u015feyler i\u00e7in yeniden ba\u015flamay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. Bir film \u015feridi gibi her\u015feyi ba\u015fa sarmak m\u00fcmk\u00fcn m\u00fc? Yada ge\u00e7mi\u015ften ders al\u0131p kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden tertemiz bir sayfa a\u00e7may\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek.. Yazmak temiz sayfalara hatas\u0131z, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden herhangi ba\u015fka bir i\u015f yapmay\u0131.<!--more--><br \/>\nKimsenin tam olarak ya\u015famak istedi\u011fi gibi, hi\u00e7 hata yapmadan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanm\u0131yorum. \u00d6yle olsayd\u0131 ya\u015faman\u0131n hi\u00e7 bir heyecan\u0131, zevki olmazd\u0131 zaten. Hayat\u0131 \u00e7ekilir k\u0131lan inand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 uygulamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakt\u0131r. Yeniden ba\u015flamay\u0131 ak\u0131l edebilmek i\u00e7in en dipte olmal\u0131s\u0131n. Kederinden ayaklar\u0131n hayat havuzunun dibine vurmal\u0131\u00b4ki, g\u00fc\u00e7 al\u0131p y\u00fczeye \u00e7\u0131kabilesin; ve hayata yeniden ba\u015flayabilesin.<br \/>\nUzun zamand\u0131r k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc kelimeler, Bu belkide son \u00e7abam, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131\u015flar\u0131md\u0131. E\u011fer yeniden ba\u015flayabilseydim hayata diyerek ba\u015flayan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler; Ne yapard\u0131n ba\u015flasayd\u0131n? Bilki ikincisinde daha fazla hata yapard\u0131n. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi bile i\u00e7imi titretmeye yetiyordu. Ba\u015flarken yeniden yazmaya daha fazla hata.<br \/>\n\u0130nsanlar bir yere ba\u011fland\u0131klar\u0131nda ka\u00e7acaklar\u0131 yer yoktur. Yeniden ba\u015flama \u015fanslar\u0131 da yoktur. M\u00fcmk\u00fcn olsayd\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten ba\u015flamak istedi\u011finde yeniden ba\u015flarlard\u0131. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f pi\u015fmanl\u0131klarla dolu, yoksa yeniden ba\u015flamay\u0131 istermi insan?<br \/>\nEvet yeniden ba\u015flamak; anlad\u0131mki istiyordum bir daha denemek. Kendim i\u00e7in de\u011filse bile demeyece\u011fim; Tamda kendim i\u00e7in deneyece\u011fim. \u00c7oktan unutulmaya y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f,do\u011fup b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm k\u00f6klerde.<br \/>\nMemo\u015f<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Mehmet Tevfik \u00d6zkartal<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00c7ok uzun zaman ge\u00e7ti yazmayal\u0131. Araya tatil girdi demek isterdim ama, \u015f\u00f6yle geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda maalesef ki sayfalar ile arama giren i\u015fim\u00b4mi\u015f. Neredeyse t\u00fcm \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak ge\u00e7irdim hayat\u0131.\u015eans\u0131m\u0131 denemek istiyorum bu defa; yeniden ba\u015flamak kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerden ve yazmak sayfalar dolusu. 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